discard

was trying to declutter last week and found a box full of old articles from almost ten years ago.  what am i doing keeping and hiding them under wraps and leaving to wither amid the mold and the ever-changing  room temperatures?  i hoard a lot of clippings, i just love to read stuff.  these files were accumulated during the years i didn't own a printer. quite ironic as the one we have now is not functioning, such a hassle when one has an essay to submit.  there are still a few boxes that are in dire need of  despoiling.  i had let go of Lebron James and Kobe Bryant articles, even Lee Young Pyo. and a GQ (was it Esquire?) cover of Kirsten Dunst.  i reckon, i may have also thrown away a Vogue cover of  Reese Witherspoon, it was a profile before she won an Oscar. i  wasn't too disappointed or cried a bucket of tears because of that, it's just a magazine.  i could chuck a few more periodicals in the bin, i just get distracted in taking a look back at the cool writings, that's all.

all drought, all rain

it's going to rain until the end of may, if we're thinking of the worst case scenario.  yet the drought continues because it's the wrong month for rain, it does not refill the underground deposits of water companies. what is needed is rain in the winter months.  there wasn't enough winter rain during the past two years, hence the drought and hosepipe ban.  if only it rained during winter . but when it's freezing, one hardly ever noticed the rain.

it's different from the sunny climes of last year. or was it  madrid in april or greece in september?  at least it's not yet the time of the year for the denizens to exfoliate and show some skin.  although there's nothing really wrong in not wearing our coats anymore. however, i still feel cold, especially in the mornings.

snacking on cheese

i'm not allowed sweets. or double-carbs e.g. rice and potato in one meal.  afritada with rice is a no-no.  but i had some of pie's cupcakes, with her innovative pacakaging and sumptuous falvours, who could resist?  i promise myself every single time i'm faced with sugary temptation, to vanquish my weakness, sometimes i'm strong enough to resist. there are moments, i forget my single carbs limit.  the dietitian recommends snacking on cheese.

the april weather is not helping.  it's too cold in the morning or it's raining.  when the hubby catches a cold, i get the sniffles a few days later and i become too weak and feverish, nose blocked, breathing through my mouth. that has been the norm during freezing winters, which is like the whole year round.  all i really want right now is to be back on my feet, facing people, walking a little bit faster, lowering my sugar levels, not my blood pressure.

trans(it)

visited my brother and his family during the easter weekend, it's a different view from last year's with the added member of the family.  the tiny tyke still cries at random and wants his freedom, none of these car seats bollocks.  the boys are growing up fast, in a swiftier technological conventions.

the transformation of king's cross has been a revelation, not been there for like months.  it's as pleasing to the eye as st. pancras next door.  i've always been in a rush, staring at the train times, gate numbers and the likes, that there's no time to absorb the aesthetics of  the station.  waterloo's refurbishment is still in progress.  can't wait to infiltrate the rejuvenated milieu, wander around the shops after a hard day's study at the nearby college or alighting after visiting a friend in surrey.

speaking of friends and family, i've been exposed to a few lifestyles recently.  a few individuals comes to mind. there's a couple who have toured europe and north america (perhaps asia?)  never worrying about a child's incessant crying in their plane compartment.  talked to a couple with two kids. they're balancing child care with bullying at school and planning kiddies parties.  then there's my friend who has decluttered a lot by moving to a bigger house, throwing away all her magazines and dvd's (?), cut her digital satellite, also planning her special zoo-themed son's birthday party.  i wish i could be as excited with the advent of a new dishwasher. there's  also this nice, suave colleague who has almost circumnavigated the world and the last time i managed to take a peek, taking pictures of his stroll in leicester square during his day off.  i guess seeing other countries is the best.  there's so much we can learn from observing other cultures. it's expensive, as my friend in NC says, "there's no budget."  she's also in the mommy trail, in america's deep south.  where's the lottery money? for those of us who were not born with silver spoons, the finest cutleries and are not pop stars or heirs to ceremonial thrones?

 leaving that thought, i'm nursing a cold at present. i should be in bed.  but i have to collect my strips at the chemist. i'll take a walk, perhaps that would bring my sugar down after i gorge half a cupcake.

better sigh

i want to type really quick for this blog. it's quite a difficult task really.  all i want to do is laxuriate in the world unto itself,  a relaxed, friendly, cool place where inappropriate comparisons and competitions are non-existent.  i just mostly want some energy.  i want to tidy up every nook and cranny, paint a wall, hoover and read more.

is it cold today?

 (photo courtesy of mr. taburada)

jan's egg tartlets reminded me of a friend of a friend, the one with the arrogance and bravado contained in a tiny package.  her words and behavior stung in '06 and they continue to manifest over the years every time i see her or her name is mentioned in random conversations.  then there's ryan's former colleague (they had a photo taken together as recently as a little bit more than 18 months ago), whose bitchiness is a story unto itself.  it's better for the soul to just sprinkle their goodness with frozen shoulders or avoid their presence at all costs.  if not possible, acknowledge their voices only when it's absolutely necessary.

back to jan's tartlets, they're great.  the lady is quite skillful with the whisk (or did she use one? i have no idea about baking).  i would have photographed them but i broke one into two as soon as i got home and ruined the pair's essence.  it would be neat to learn how to make cupcakes.  type2 diabetes runs in my blood but it's the earnest consumption of rice and instant noodles that would impair my insulin production.

anyway, it's good friday today.  we should all be kind.  is kindness becoming rare these days?  hopefully not.